Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Self-Medicating

Through working on the Inspired Recovery project and reading widely about mental health, I have began the long education process of learning about mental illness. It appears that there are still many facets of this complex issue that are still to be explored in their entirety.

Many people I have spoken to have admitted a tendency to turn to substance abuse or “self-medicating” in an attempt to ease their considerable suffering.

Maree: “ I had a greater love/trust relationship with drugs than I had ever experienced with my family.”

Joe: “The hardest thing to do in my life was to stop drinking.”

Julie: “I began to abuse alcohol regularly and developed a serious drinking problem that lasted for some years.”

This is by no means a factor in everyone’s experience with a mental illness but the quoted contributors from Inspired Recovery are not alone. In fact, over 50% of people with a severe mental illness also use illicit drugs and/or alcohol*.

The vital question we should be asking is: how can we help these people cope, without having to resort to excessive use of medication that endangers their lives.

Mary Dodds, author of Schizophrenia: A Happier and Healthier Life, explains that people with a serious mental illness who self-medicate with either illicit drugs or alcohol are simply trying to find something to make them feel better, to end their pain. People with a mental illness suffer a great deal emotionally and psychologically and for this reason tend to seek solace to end their suffering, if only for a short while.

However, there is ample evidence to suggest that self-medicating is not the answer. As Dodds warns, this will only make the symptoms worse. Substance misuse increases the odds of suicide, incarceration, hepatitis, HIV, homelessness and aggression. In short, self-medicating is dangerous and detrimental to one’s health and research suggests it is counter-productive.

The solutions to this problem are by no means simple but perhaps there is something the rest of us could be doing. Let’s Talk About It! Raising awareness many not, in itself, provide the entire answer but the more first-hand information on how to get well, stay well and live well the higher the chances for successful recovery.

Let’s Talk About It! Tell us about your experience.

K


*Cleary M, Hunt GE, Matheson SL, Siegfried N, Walter G. Psychosocial interventions for people with both severe mental illness and substance misuse. Cochrane Database of Systematic Reviews 2008, Issue 1. Art. No.: CD001088. DOI: 10.1002/14651858.CD001088.pub2.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Living with the Diagnosis

Lisa Mora, a contributor to Inspired Recovery (www.inspiredrecovery.com) and author of I am Lisa; I am not Bipolar shares what I believe to be a truly amazing insight:

“I understand what living with the diagnosis means. Note that I say “living with the diagnosis,” not “living with Bipolar disorder,” says Lisa “Believe me, there is a difference.”

“One implies living in a permanent state of disease, the other highlights a whole other set of problems that can arise from the stigma of being diagnosed mentally ill. And that stigma, that label of defective, the feeling of being branded and excluded, cuts so much deeper and hurts so much more than the classified symptoms of the actual disorder.

Manic episodes come and go. Depression lingers then passes. All states of emotional being are transient and fleeting but being bipolar becomes a permanent label. People look at you differently when they know. Getting upset over something that would annoy anyone can then be seen as a sign of your instability.”

I believe that sharing this often unheard, first-hand perspective has the greatest potential to increase awareness and understanding of mental illness as well as provide a potential guideline to wellness for other sufferers.

Lisa’s raw and honest distinction between “living with an illness” and “living with a diagnosis” is a concept that is rarely explored, but one that highlights an unfortunate trend in our society: the promotion and reinforcement of fear.

It is my personal belief that we are created by society and in turn society is shaped by us. Human beings at large have consistently demonstrated a tendency to foster and reinforce misguided judgments towards an issue, person or group of people whether or not they have any factual knowledge at all. Behavior that goes against the main thrust of what it is to be ‘normal’ has always been a taboo subject.

Lisa’s experience that people look at her differently when they knew calls the enormous power of our belief system (who we are and who we tell others we are) into sharp focus.

This stigmatization and distinction that Lisa points out is not only unhelpful to those who suffer but is actively counter-productive. I believe that the media and entertainment industries don’t help matters when they portray those with a mental illness as violent, unpredictable, psychotic and dangerous. Without sufficient and reliable awareness of what it means to have a mental illness, our society is left with the pre-conceived notion that mental illness or sufferers of mental illness are to be feared and shunned.

I believe that the only way to alleviate ignorance is to shine a light on it. The more we open up the facts around mental illness and the more people read and hear the truth behind people’s experiences with mental illness the smaller the cycle of ignorance and fear gets.

K

My Experience

My Grandma suffers from mental illness. She has schizo-effective disorder and border-line personality disorder.

During my childhood this did not factor into the relationship I had with my Grandma. We spent a lot of time together and she would read me story after story for hours on end. She made me cubby houses out of sheets which took up her entire living room and never once complained about the mess. We went walking together and she would spend her last few cents on sweets for me. Pretty standard Grandma behavior, I thought.

When I was small the other things were easy enough to accept or not really notice. The times when twittering birds outside her window drove her to tears, though I couldn't hear anything. She once had a 'noise competition' with the exhaust fan in the kitchen, telling me she was going to be the loudest. Sometimes I couldn't visit because Grandma wasn't well but soon she was back home and everything was okay again.

As I grew up I began to identify periods of wellness and un-wellness. By this stage, I understood that she was different but I didn't care. She was my Grandma and I loved her dearly.

The worst of her illness was kept from me when I was small but as I got older her condition began to fluctuate more rapidly.

My adult experience of having a mentally ill Grandmother includes being woken up by phone calls at midnight, listening to my Grandma sobbing. Being told the same thing over and over, repetitively, manically for hours on end. Trying to calm her when she becomes hysterical, irrational and abusive. Placating her paranoid conspiracy theories. Enduring the fear of her repeated suicide attempts and, sometimes unbearably, watching the most wonderful, loving woman suffer in total agony.

It's been hard at times. I've sometimes struggled to be patient through her episodes of mania and paranoia and my courage and endurance has been tested in periods of depression. I have really fought to remain calm at times, through the roller coaster of mental illness, but the depth of love we share has never changed. Never even fluctuated.

We have always had a close relationship. We share a love of books and reading, a passion for old-fashioned movies and other such things. I would not change a single moment because I adore my Grandma and I love and accept who she is.

These experiences, both good and bad, are the source of my greatest learning and I have my Grandma to thank for such precious gifts.

K